Bitter Sweet

Seeing things change in time can be kind of hard. I have a friend that lives in another state. Over time our relationship has a changed a little. We went from talking on the phone at least once a week to hardly talking every other month. It is so weird because there was one in point in time where I thought that I couldn't go without telling her every detail of my life and now I know there are details in her life and in mine they we both don't know anything about.

I talked to her on the phone today and it made me a little sad. She is getting married next week and I am unable to go to the wedding. We were joking about how much we have grown up. She is going to be a wife and I am going to be a mommy and it is just crazy. We always talked about reaching 18...can't wait to be 18...and 18 has done and passed 5 years ago. I know that relationships change like seasons, but I didn't want this one too. Not that we have a bad relationship...I just don't know how we are to the point that we hardly know the events in each others lives.

In spite of feeling a little sad and far away from my good friend...I am really happy. Jamie and I are starting a family and trying to make it in a strange place : ) It has been a hard road living here but we are making it and I am excited that we have let change and challenges into our lives! We stepped out of our comfort zone and I feel like I can start to see this place as a home. I get so giddy thinking about being parents. It is going to be so hard...and I am a little nervous...but what a wonderful gift! To bring a whole new person into the world and bring her up in Christ's love. I love her so much already... I can't imagine loving her anymore and I haven't even met her!