Where Did It Go?

Today I am slightly downcast. Not at life in general. My life is really good...I am above and beyond blessed, and I dont say that lightly. The Lord has done so much for me and it would take forever for me just to explain all He has done for us in past few months alone! No, it is not my life that saddens me....today I am saddened with others lives and the decisions they have made.

For example...one of my friends...lets say his name is "Kyle". "Kyle" and I used to be amazing friends in high school. We used to do crazy, awesome things like go to Burger King and randomly hand out printed strips of paper with Bible verses on them. It was so exciting! People would look at us like we were insane...some people were thankful...and some just didn't even care...but it was so exhilarating! To just put our Faith out there and really try to reach people! "Kyle" even handed them out in high school to people...every single morning. We talked about being missionaries together...we talked about reaching people together...God was our focus.

Now a days I dont go to Burger King and hand out strips of paper and being a missionary isnt really what I have felt God telling me to do at this point in my life. I understand that people's lives and ambitions and callings change...but Faith should not change. "Kyle" no longer lives in his Faith..."Kyle" gave up his Faith a long time ago and has let the world consume him. He tries to play it off that he is happy with his life, but deep down he will admit to you that Faith is something he wishes he still lived out. This makes me heartbroken beyond words. I know I am not perfect, there are many times that I have steered in the wrong direction. Thank God, He brought me back to Him...and I still screw up all the time. But why do people give up all together. Was "Kyle" not strong enough? Did he just get tired of trying? Did he have that much hurt in his life to walk away? And the one that I hate to think...was he living a lie?

I talked to "Kyle" for a minute today. I asked him how life was...it was the same as it was when I talked to him a year and a half ago. I asked him if he was happy. He said "well I just got back from vacation...so today I am."

If I think about it...I have a handful of friends like this right off the top of my head. People who I really admired and looked up to at one point, and now I feel heartbroken when in thought of them. BUT I can also think of a handful of people who are growing and want to know more about God and His love....that gives me so much hope and happiness.

This world is SO harsh. People losing jobs, getting divorces, giving up, failing...everyone goes through these times but not everyone has the Resource to deal with it. I need to be reaching out to people and letting them know I am thinking of them or praying for them...whether they have Faith or not.

Lord, please give me hope...and allow me to bring hope to others.