I need me time!

SO I should be cleaning right now...BUT I NEED ME TIME...and Jubilee is asleep so I am going to take this oppurtunity and type out some thoughts.

I love to write. I know I am not very good at it. AND I definitly dont follow the rules. (Notice how I started that last sentence with AND and I didnt add a ' to my dont) BUT I just love sitting down and writing them or typing them out. Sometimes you can realize things while you are in the process of writing them out!

I find myself everyday becoming more like my mother. Example: My mom used to get so busy that she would forget about her coffee. So then she would microwave it to warm it up...and forget about it again. I always thought it was funny when I would open the microwave and it would be sitting there cold. WELL the other day I opened up the microwave and low and behold there was a cup of coffee from the PREVIOUS day. I picked up the phone to tell my mom as I knew she would laugh at the fact that I am slowly becoming her. I told her the story and she said "OH! My coffee is in the microwave" :) It cracks me up that I see parents so different now ...because...well...I am one! Now being here I have no idea how my mom kept our house so clean and did everything that she did... but then again I guess she had a lot of practice. (Im sure I wasnt noticing how clean the house was when I was 5...maybe it was just as cluttered as mine...maybe).

Being a parent has shown me a new light on our relationship with God. Last night Juju wouldnt stop crying and I new it was just because she was tired. She wanted me to keep feeding her but I knew she would get sick if I gave her more...she just didnt realize it because she drank her bottle SO fast and wasnt feeling full yet. I knew this because shes done it before and threw up the entire last ounce. I wonder how many times God laughs at us because we think we know what is best in our lives...He sees such a bigger picture and knows what is best for us...but we just keep whining and crying for what we think is best. Interesting...

Well I had some "me" time and all I did was talk about being a parent : ) New identity I suppose...I used to be pregger lady and now I am new mommy! Its good though...now I am always right, can hear everything, and have eyes in the back of my head!