I am so pregnant....I mean I know I have been pregnant lol but I am SO at the end of this. Everything I do I have to psych myself up... "Jean, just bend over and pick up the heath bar wrapper that you dropped...it will just take a few seconds" or "Ok Jean...its not THAT hard to open the dish washer and put stuff away...is it?" I know these things sound soooo silly....but I am super exhausted and have no energy. I feel like as soon as I clean Jubilee pulls everything back out anyway and I am back to square one. Also...I am to that sleeping point...where I can try and sleep but I have to move every half hour and I wake up feeling completely unrested. Hips....oh man...they are the worst. At least the ribs aren't an issue anymore : )
Yesterday the heat was the WORST! I drove Jamie to work (our truck has no AC) and dropped him off....by the time I got to my Dr. appointment I was so upset and hot and just mad. The CNA asked me how I was feeling and I started crying....its just too damn hot for this pregnant lady. At least we got the csection shceduled! August 30th, which is a Monday and which is what I prayed for. Thanks Lord : )
I know all of this jibber jabber seems rediculous...but I am just through! I would love to get this place spotless and go out shopping or something...but my body is just done. Doesn't want to do anything but sleep eat and veg in my recliner.
It has also been hard adjusting to being a stay a home mommy again because I am here for long hours on end with Jubilee (who I LOVE hanging out with by the way) but sometimes I just miss having adult time. I have all the time in the world and forget that all my friends have lives and things to do...while I just sit around and wait. Sounds selfish I know...but it is just how I feel.
Oh Lord please help me find some encouragement somewhere.
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