I Feel Crazy

Literally feel not myself...motivated towards the weirdest things...it's a good crazy. But crazy non the less. I don't know what will happen. More stories to come :)

Parellels

Yesterday was the first day of a couple of harsh days here in our home. We took away Jubilee's pacifier and as you can see she is very very fond of it.

And isn't she just the cutest with it?! We let her carry it around with her everywhere until she was about 18 months and then it was time to cut back a little. Ever since she has only been able to have on at nap time, bedtime, doctor appointments, or on really bad bad days (like the day we visited the ER.)

Well as you can see she found comfort and joy and affectionately referred to it as her sunny...as Dad had so named it when we bought her first one.

I decided it was time to get rid of it because it is affecting her teeth and she is WAY to dependent of it. She becomes demanding and really mean if she can't find it.

Last night she was up until 3am. She was refusing to sleep and screaming and crying and kicking and just all kinds of mad. We tried to explain to her that she was a big girl now. We even gave her one that I had cut the end off of to show her it was gone and she even threw it away....but still begged for her sunny. About 2 or 3 was when I was trying to comfort her and tell her I understood her being sad and how hard it is to grow up and move on, but she didn't want anything to do with me. Didn't want hugs, didn't want me to talk to her, just mean. I felt my heart breaking. I didn't want to put her through this kind of hurt. I was just doing it for her well being and because I knew it was best. Aside...she has everything else around here! Toys and bears and blankies and books and sippy cups.

Sometimes I can see why we are called children of God. God does something and instead of seeing the well being of it or knowing He really does have the best intentions, we go into our "MINE!" modes and becomes little frantic two year olds looking for our sunnys when we have so much else we could find comfort in. He even tries to reach out to us and we are just so upset that we don't want to listen to Him. I can truly see the parallel now. And I know I have broken His heart. Even not reacting in a bad way and just being sad I can see how He could grieve with me over things that I have lost. This all just really opened up my eyes.

Poor Juju...she has been in there an hour today and still won't take her nap. She HAS to be exhausted. LOL We will see how day two ends!

A Mommy's Thankful Prayer (In all sincerity and a true story)

Thank you, Lord that Jusi was crying and crying and crying for me to hold her. I needed a break from laundry and dishes and cleaning today anyhow.

Thank you, Lord for the spare bedroom I have. I really needed it today to put Juju in because she was screaming and crying and throwing a fit, so loud, that she would have woken up Jusi.

Thank you, Lord that my daughter has no bumps or bruises from crawling out of her pack n play today during nap time.

Thank you, Lord that I had a wire hanger in my home. Right after Jubilee crawled out of the pack n play she decided to lock herself in the spare bedroom, and that wire hanger suuuure came in handy.

Thank you, Lord for coffee and cream and lots of sugar to calm me down.

Thank you, Lord for Finding Nemo...it just calms EVERYONE down.

Thank you, Lord that my husband is on his way home and I can BREATHE for a second : )

6 day breakdown

Friday- WAS CRAZY! We started packing way early but the girls, kitties, and myself had to leave Ricky and Jamie behind to continue packing. We came here...went over to Aaron and Retta's (our neighbors and GREAT friends) and I took a shower and relaxed on the couch till Jamie came home...and he also took one and instead of unloading we CRASHED on thier air matress. : )

Saturday- UNPACK! We all unloaded the truck and then Jamie and Ricky went to go goof off and run errands while Ray and myself watched the girls and organized. Saturday evening we had pizza and went over to Aaron and Retta's and just chiiiiillllled

Sunday- I felt like CRAP! so we didn't do much. Hung out...I ran some errands...and then we went over to guess who's...Aaron and Retta's and watched the game with Ricky and them! (WOO HOO FOR COLTS COUNTRY!) Came home...unpacked a box or two and crashed

Monday- WAS NUTS! Jamie felt terrible and had strained his neck/shoulder and had to call in on his first day. (Fortunately he knew his boss and has worked for her before and she totally understood) SO I ran a key over to Aaron and Retta and left Jubilee asleep in her crib and drove up to O'hare to get my brother from his flight home from KOREA! : ) We had a good time on the way back....joking and laughing...all together it was a 9 hour trip. When we got back we brought food to Jamie and Ricky (who had kept him company for a while). ALSO while I was gone Caleb's parents stopped by and gave us groceries and goodies and giftcards! AND Aaron and Retta brought us groceries too...talk about feeling blessed.

Tuesday- Was filled with unpacking and orgnazing. Guy watched the girls while I went into town and got utilities set up (yes...you must go into town to get them turned on) when I came back I started a pot of chili which ended up feeding a bunch of people. Aaron, Retta, Ricky, Jamie, Guy, Jubilee, and Rylan oh and myself...and the babies just had their baby stuff. BUT STILL! I entertained 10 people. And we were all sitting in the livingroom and having community and I just felt so happy.

Wednesday- er...today....unpacked more, things are starting to feel at home for sure! Retta and Aaron hung out with us all day as I was making things comfy and cozy. Gabe is here to hang out with us and guy (a kid we homeschooled with) and we are expecting Ricky and Glover over later. WOW! I didnt even realize how many people we have had in and out of here till now! It's going to be like 13 people!

AND (I know lots of caps in this blog) we are going to have my parents here tomorrow and have an early Christmas this weekend. Gotta get the tree up tomorrow! more soon...perhaps a fail blog????? : )