So the "pregger blahs" have set in and I find myself feeling very unmotivated about 75% of the day. I am trying my best because I want to spend lots of time with my girls and not miss out on them right now. I know this time shall pass and the second trimester will be here sooner than I think...Jamie calls that trimester the sexy trimester....because your pregger glow sets in and you have all this amazing energy and you just feel good. I should ask him what he calls this trimester? : ) I am getting super duper excited about a third child and feel really really blessed. I keep thinking it is a boy but that may be because I don't know what to name another girl or that I am hoping or something. OF COURSE if we have a girl it will be more than fine. I will definitely be in my comfort zone with a girl...I don't know how to take care of a boy! : )
The weather was so nice the other day...I wish it would shoot back up into the late 50's...we sat out on a blanket and just looooved the sunshine. It was great. I think if it would get warm again that could help. I am also trying to walk and I would prefer to do it outside with the girls. So get out here sunshine...
ALSO I got proactiv today, courtesy of my loving parents...that could help with the blahs too....we shall see!
SO if I don't blog as much it is just because I am using what energy I have to do things like dishes and cleaning.
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Saturday, March 26, 2011
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Ok then...
Today is not the ideal day. I do realize these days do happen and will happen....BUT today I just want to be completely unproductive and eat chocolate until I pass out.
Jusi (Justice) is sick. My poor girl. She has thrown up (on me) 4 times in the last half hour. Poor thing...along with being congested, she is not having an ideal day.
Juju is being two. Ok then...not an ideal day
Jamie is being written up at work for something he has nothing to do with! (Drawer was short 20 dollars this morning....he did not close last night. They are saying it's his fault since he took a deposit in the afternoon. Makes. no. sense.) So he may have to pay it back and may get a write up which he is disputing because he did nothing wrong which means...I dont even know. Also we found out he is getting paid 1/4 less a month than what we though. No an ideal day
So here I am giving it to You, Lord. There is nothing I can do with this not ideal day....but I know that You can use it, mold it, fix it....so please just do what You have to.
Jusi (Justice) is sick. My poor girl. She has thrown up (on me) 4 times in the last half hour. Poor thing...along with being congested, she is not having an ideal day.
Juju is being two. Ok then...not an ideal day
Jamie is being written up at work for something he has nothing to do with! (Drawer was short 20 dollars this morning....he did not close last night. They are saying it's his fault since he took a deposit in the afternoon. Makes. no. sense.) So he may have to pay it back and may get a write up which he is disputing because he did nothing wrong which means...I dont even know. Also we found out he is getting paid 1/4 less a month than what we though. No an ideal day
So here I am giving it to You, Lord. There is nothing I can do with this not ideal day....but I know that You can use it, mold it, fix it....so please just do what You have to.
Friday, November 12, 2010
"Motherly" advice
THE worst thing...you can ever do...like ever... is compare some one's kids. I have had one too many times now "I cant wait for her (points at littlest one) to be her(points at toddler) age" I wont go in to detail, but way too many people have told me that now. I know they do not realize they come off that way...but for me, my daughters are both equally adorable and equally holdable....so please...treat them equal. "oh well she isn't really at the stage I like (pointing at Justice)" Please...break my heart. Once again people don't realize how often they say this and how it comes off. And no, I do not feel I am being to emotional about it because I know of other mothers who feel the same. I think this is why people say I "spoil" Justice and why I won't put her down. Because I am making up for everyone else who runs to Jubilee instead. Both of my daughters are fantastic....size, shape, weight, and age factor into that.
OK. I have said my piece. How would you deal with this?
OK. I have said my piece. How would you deal with this?
Friday, October 29, 2010
Sadness
I have been pretty "high" lately on the idea of moving to lower cost of living and back near family and friends and familiarity....
BUT at the same time I am way sad. I was looking through the pictures of the Brantners/Lords in Myrtle Beach (-1) and I am just sad. I am leaving them all behind...I mean Dave and Stac and Jessica and Bryan are in other states....but they have all become family. Not just church family but like my actual family. Kirk and Joyce have been here through both of my pregnancies and my girls getting bigger, and break downs in my life and just everything...good and bad. And I love them. And all four of thier children. Even though thier kids live in other states I feel like I am moving away from the connection. And...I am crying. So Emo....Why does life have to change? I know this is a dumb question and I know there are seasons but...I just want this part of my life to live on and some how mesh with my other life. And my church, oh my word...what will we do without Deb and Chris and Andy and Dan and Mrs. Rose and Pete and Norma...and everyone. I know it is coming and I have to deal with it. Sunday is our last day at our church and for some reason I said...yes put me on worship team which is like saying...yes, put a mic in my hand so I can sing/cry in front of everybody. Blah
BUT at the same time I am way sad. I was looking through the pictures of the Brantners/Lords in Myrtle Beach (-1) and I am just sad. I am leaving them all behind...I mean Dave and Stac and Jessica and Bryan are in other states....but they have all become family. Not just church family but like my actual family. Kirk and Joyce have been here through both of my pregnancies and my girls getting bigger, and break downs in my life and just everything...good and bad. And I love them. And all four of thier children. Even though thier kids live in other states I feel like I am moving away from the connection. And...I am crying. So Emo....Why does life have to change? I know this is a dumb question and I know there are seasons but...I just want this part of my life to live on and some how mesh with my other life. And my church, oh my word...what will we do without Deb and Chris and Andy and Dan and Mrs. Rose and Pete and Norma...and everyone. I know it is coming and I have to deal with it. Sunday is our last day at our church and for some reason I said...yes put me on worship team which is like saying...yes, put a mic in my hand so I can sing/cry in front of everybody. Blah
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Changes...as usual
Life is always changing...isn't it? Sometimes it is refreshing and sometimes it can just put you in a funk.
We have some potentialy good changes going on around here. With change always comes stress for me. I take on too much...I always have...try to fix problems we haven't even reached yet, while trying to make everyone happy. Not a good combination.
Back in March we were trying to move to Indianapolis...we had almost everything set in motion when my company backed out and decided they didn't want to give me a store of my own and wanted to start me at basic Asst Manager pay....uhm....not cool. SO Jamie and I were getting hesitant about it all...down to the last minute when we decided to stay here, have Justice, and figure out what to do from there. We were ok with it. God didn't give us an open door so we took another one.
We moved into the condo and have loved it here. We have been pretty content...knowing we are where God put us. BUT it has been hard. The cost of living out here is just so pricey. We have applied for every kind of assistance in hopes of "making" it because we are tired of asking people for help. In our minds though, there was no hope of getting out. Because in order to move...you need a place to live, money to move, and a job.
Well this last time we were in Peru it was super hard to leave. Seeing small town living again, being around family and friends who are in the same part of life as us, and seeing gas prices and cost of living being so much lower. We were honestly jealous. We want that lifestyle again and we need it. Being broke was different when it was just Jamie and I but now there are two little ones who need food and shelter.
As a joke Jamie put "taking up funds to move back to Peru" on his facebook status, and through it came an unexpected response. My parents told me that they were willing to help us move back and they would pay for our uhaul. We started praying and thinking about it....and came to the conclusion, maybe God was working on our heart and preparing us back in March. And maybe he wanted to direct us a little more North than Indy.
We decided to follow through some more with this and see where God took us. He has opened the door a little so....we decided to keep going.
That brings us to present. Jamie has a job interview on Tuesday with a company and gal that he has already worked with, who expressed how much she needed someone who knew what they were doing. SO. We are praying. If God opens the door to this job, we feel we can't miss out on that oppurtunity. Being paid the same he is now, paying half the rent, and simpler living.
Please pray for us as we wait on God and that we make the right decision even if it is hard.
We have some potentialy good changes going on around here. With change always comes stress for me. I take on too much...I always have...try to fix problems we haven't even reached yet, while trying to make everyone happy. Not a good combination.
Back in March we were trying to move to Indianapolis...we had almost everything set in motion when my company backed out and decided they didn't want to give me a store of my own and wanted to start me at basic Asst Manager pay....uhm....not cool. SO Jamie and I were getting hesitant about it all...down to the last minute when we decided to stay here, have Justice, and figure out what to do from there. We were ok with it. God didn't give us an open door so we took another one.
We moved into the condo and have loved it here. We have been pretty content...knowing we are where God put us. BUT it has been hard. The cost of living out here is just so pricey. We have applied for every kind of assistance in hopes of "making" it because we are tired of asking people for help. In our minds though, there was no hope of getting out. Because in order to move...you need a place to live, money to move, and a job.
Well this last time we were in Peru it was super hard to leave. Seeing small town living again, being around family and friends who are in the same part of life as us, and seeing gas prices and cost of living being so much lower. We were honestly jealous. We want that lifestyle again and we need it. Being broke was different when it was just Jamie and I but now there are two little ones who need food and shelter.
As a joke Jamie put "taking up funds to move back to Peru" on his facebook status, and through it came an unexpected response. My parents told me that they were willing to help us move back and they would pay for our uhaul. We started praying and thinking about it....and came to the conclusion, maybe God was working on our heart and preparing us back in March. And maybe he wanted to direct us a little more North than Indy.
We decided to follow through some more with this and see where God took us. He has opened the door a little so....we decided to keep going.
That brings us to present. Jamie has a job interview on Tuesday with a company and gal that he has already worked with, who expressed how much she needed someone who knew what they were doing. SO. We are praying. If God opens the door to this job, we feel we can't miss out on that oppurtunity. Being paid the same he is now, paying half the rent, and simpler living.
Please pray for us as we wait on God and that we make the right decision even if it is hard.
Too Much Information...
Do you ever have so much on your mind...that it makes you physically sick?
It's 5 oclock in the morning...and I am sick. I am sure these meds for my dumb tooth are not helping my stress levels or emotional status.
I could sit here and type all the stress'. But I won't go there.
Tomorrow is a new day, with no mistakes in it. Right, God?
It's 5 oclock in the morning...and I am sick. I am sure these meds for my dumb tooth are not helping my stress levels or emotional status.
I could sit here and type all the stress'. But I won't go there.
Tomorrow is a new day, with no mistakes in it. Right, God?
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