Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Not the day for any kind of self esteem

Today was a frustrating day. I started my new "eating right habits" and it was just annoying. I only had 500 calories until dinner, then I ate what I wanted in small portions and until I was content...not full...just satisfied. I went and worked out...came home and had a 150 calorie snack. Now...it may not sound like the most fantastic plan, but I KNOW that I cut out a huge portion of what I eat and I worked out on top of it. I am going to continue to do this till I see results and until I have money to buy healthier things...in the meantime I have no choice but to use the things in my cabinets and just be thankful I have something. SO yes, frustrating day..the diet...my acne, ugh I don't even know what is going on with it. I just want it to go away and I want to treat it but can't at the moment. Also none of my clothes fit me right, so I look frumpy and blah and it doesn't matter anyway because if I did have cute stuff I wouldn't have time to fix myself up because I always come last in the equation. (Get kids up, change and bathe kids, feed kids, entertain kids, nap the kids, clean the house, get kids up, change kids, feed kids, oh look Jamie's home, feed him too, and shower) LOL Ok So it may seem like I am kind of complaining here...I love my life, I love what I do, I love my kids and my hubby...but I can do without the acne, the frumpy look, the clothes not fitting, the lack of healthy food, and the lack of money to fix acne, clothing,food problems. *sigh* I'm sorry. It was just a weird and frustrating day and I am praying that God passes some hope my way and that I can just keep my chin up and remember that I have two daughters, a husband, and a Creator who thinks that I am beautiful.

1 comment:

Stac-face said...

and you have friends that think you're beautiful too....:)

the next time i'm over in peru we'll drive to kokomo and i'll buy you a (healthy) dunkin donuts coffee. love you....