Relationships

 I have been thinking a lot about relationships lately. They are quite the mystery to me. I know that everyone goes through changes in relationships, a lot of them are just seasons in our lives. Sometimes I am baffled at how close I am to someone, or how much I look up to them, only to discover we weren't close at all or they weren't who I thought they were. Also it amazes me when I have known someone for years and years and just kind of maintained an acquaintance with them until one day it blossoms into a deeper friendship and love. Then there are the people I have  never liked and never will like; the people I have always been close to and will always fight to be close to.

 I can think of several people who fit into each category. Sometimes it is hard....after a while I start to feel as though I don't want to get close to anyone else, or I don't have room in my heart for another friend who just evaporates after time. BUT when I stop and think about it, I really do think that God allows certain people into my life. While I am only close to some of them for a while, I can see where I learned something from them or from the relationship I had with them. Sometimes it just sucks though...I think I know someone and then BAM I am just hit upside the head with who they are or where their heart really is. It's in those moments that I have to remember that God is the one I always lean on and focus on...then when people leave my life it just doesn't hurt as much.

If you would have asked me years ago I would have told you that some people would never abandon me....But God also brought lots of unexpected and amazing people into my life AND allowed me to maintain some really important relationships. I guess it is just how life works.

It kind of sucks to think that people are just interchangeable and can be cycled in and out of your life....but sometimes that's the only way I can get through it. I am thankful for the people who have been there in the past and I am super thankful for the people who choose to be there in the future.